Yesterday I wrote a post that I will not share. It was a morbid tale of how it feels to know that I could bleed really badly at any time and have to rush off to surgery to deliver this little (29 wks) guy. The day I wrote that piece, I saw everything as dark and scary. That is a true picture, it is dark and scary.
But all of the drama is also kind of funny.
I am a perfectly healthy woman. I feel fine. Without the work of caring for my home and kids, I don't even have the aching back and sore feet typical of pregnancy.
And yet I seem to warrant a lot of excitement around here. For example . . .
I have to live with an IV in my arm - because the 2 minutes it takes to put one in before surgery is just too long.
The only place I can walk to outside my unit is across the hall to the Labor & Delivery / OBICU unit that houses the operating rooms.
If I go to Labor & Deliver, not only do I have to tell my nurse, but they have to call over to let the nurses know in L&D - just in case.
It took me almost a week to negotiate a little freedom - I can now be wheeled outside, by a nurse, once a day, for 15 minutes.
I also negotiated a daily trip downstairs to the cafeteria. But I must be wheeled by my family, stay only 30 minutes, carry a cell phone with the number of the charge nurse, and let the resident know where I am.
Today all of the excitement over me is kind of funny.
But I must admit, it is still a little scary too.
Sorry if I scared you - just be glad I didn't post what I wrote yesterday.
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I know it must be so scary. I'm praying for you!!!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you're able to keep your sense of humour but it's ok to be dark, scary , and sad to. I get it. Can take it. It is good to be able to follow how your days are going and I am so glad you have lots of peeps to help you and jeffrey out. Thinking of u guys every day. Heidi
ReplyDeleteI cannot imagine the heartache you all are going through right now. God will turn that heartache into joy, but I know it's so hard to wait to see when that will be! What can we do to help you from Bowling Green? You have just been on my mind so much and we are praying for you! Jeffrey is amazing to be doing all that he is doing while at the same time taking care of his wife & children. One day you will understand all this. Just remember that God is taking care of you and that precious baby boy. We love you five!
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